Stop looking outside for your happiness & start looking straight to God for it. Outward things will not make you happy at all. You keep going on looking for something to make you happy. Homes, money, drink, drugs, clothes, food, porn, & so much more. Only you working with God can do that. You have to believe His Word, His Salvation, His Love. He's always there waiting and willing to hear from you, to be with you, to talk with you. He loves you. You don't have to be perfect, He mets you where you are. He reaches out His hands & love to you. You will have more peace with God. peace with yourself, peace with others, You will not need a material things to keep you happy. It will not be all flowers & sunshine but, a peace that He's there with you to help or take you through the up times, the down times. And the sad times. He loves you & He's there for you. You will never be alone. Call out to Him. He'll come a running. Talk with Him. Talk to Him as you would anybody else. He's there to listen. Reach out! Even Christians look outside instead of the inside for happiness, peace. Don't look at man look at the maker of man. The Father, Son, & Holy Ghost. Be open to their Love in your life, them speaking to you in that small still voice. or Even His Loud voice as sometime He needs to get out attention. But, He's there!